In one of the weekly meditation groups I facilitate, we discussed the topic of “patience”. It is something I have struggled with most of my life. I am naturally impatient. I am working on having my nurture affect my nature to become more patient. I remember the first time it was pointed out to me that I was too impatient. I was buying camping supplies at a K-Mart in Spokane, Washington. After coming through the check-out, I noticed a lady with a shawl over her head, sitting in front of a crystal ball (for real). She looked at me and said, “I would like to read your palm.” Since my girlfriend was no where to be found at the time, I shot my hand out while she gazed at the creases on my palm. After a few seconds of awkward silence, she gave me the report. She said, “You are too impatient.” I quickly pulled back my hand and said, “I don’t have time for this nonsense!”
I guess she was right.
Meditation and practicing mindfulness throughout the day has helped immensely. In meditation, we accept the interruptions of our chattering mind and let the thoughts gently drift away. In my meditation, I am very patient with myself but it wasn’t always that way. When I first stated meditation, I can remember thinking, “Why am I not feeling anything profound?” I was certain I wasn’t doing something right. I would be angry if my chattering mind interrupted me! Through meditation I learned patience. As I learned how to take mindful practice anywhere and everywhere, I found that I was slowly becoming more patient.
If my old self was stuck in traffic, I would rage at the line of cars in front of me. I was a hand waver. I was angry at the line of traffic, as if these cars go together and said, “Let’s mess this guy up and watch him go crazy!” Bringing mindfulness into traffic jams gives me the opportunity to just accept the things that are out of my control. I am far from perfect with this. I still wave my hands at people who drive too slowly in the left hand lane but I am a work in progress.
As you head into your weekend, I hope you find some moments of mindfulness and experience patience as you develop into a better version of yourself. I will be in Ho’oponopono this Sunday. Maybe I will see you there.
Peace and patience to you,